This second assignment has been really interesting for me it has enabled me to begin to look at something I am particularly interested in and battle with a lot of self doubt. A lot of times during my time on the course I have felt like I don't belong but within this essay I found an interest and yes there was still doubts and worries but it has allowed me to grow and discover answers for myself.
I have spent time reading and allowing myself to learn and grow with my readings finding interests in books which were not necessarily linked directly with dance but with the path I am about to adventure down. Now although this sounds very positive there has been days where I have believed that this was no longer possible but I have succeeded and early this afternoon I finished my second assessment. Now when I finish an assessment I always like to let the excitement settle by walking away and coming back to it an hour later with fresh eyes to check over my work.
This evening this is what I have done after an evening of work and teaching to then struggle with the upload to turn it in. For once I have not spent the day worrying about the finish line and self annoyance that I had left the assignment too late and this is the time that the computer system fails and does not allow me to upload my work to feel the satisfaction of the completion instead now I am having to wait in limbo as I wait to see if my work will or will not be accepted. I really hope it does as I would love to feel that accomplishment that comes when a piece of work is finished but the unknowing of what may happen next just worries me deeply.
And do you know what the worst realisation is.... its the weekend tomorrow so finding out could have to wait several days.
:( Keep your fingers crosse and learn from my mistake never trust a computer
